After watching the news late in the afternoon into Friday evening, I tearfully turned off the television. I couldn’t watch it anymore as the pain of the terrible tragedy grew within me – similar to the kind of mournful loss you feel after a loved one has passed on. I felt it three times in my life and I didn’t think I’d have to bear that kind of pain so soon after my mother’s passing in July. My heart is bleeding again for those innocent children, their parents and families, for the teachers and their spouse, child(ren), families, and friends in Newtown, Connecticut.

Evil lurked, prowled, and attacked beauty and innocence. I cried out, “Why God?! Why?!” Desperately needing to feel hope in the midst of darkness, I put on the movie to feel that hope once again. I curled up in my warm, fleece blanket and began to watch “The Nativity Story.” As the story unfolded, I couldn’t help but feel joy seeing how Hope broke through the darkness and came into our world. Emmanuel. Jesus was Hope then and He is our Hope now.

During this senseless act of violence, evil thought it was winning. But I truly and deeply believe God defeated evil before it started. God turned it around for the good of those who love Him.  ~Romans 8:28

While we all wished the good is the survival of all the children and adults or we wished this just never happened at all… I do believe God was right there with his children He loves so dearly. Even though I knew this within my spirit, I fell asleep in tears, praying for everyone in Newtown and for us all.

I woke up this morning joyful and energetic – quite a contrast from the night before. I kept thinking about the images I saw and wondered, “Did I make this up?” As I got going this morning, I couldn’t put them out of my mind and my spirit is stirred with new hope.

I am not sure if this was a dream or if this is something I just “know,” but I believe before evil attacked, God had already sent a very special angel to each one of his children to protect them from that last breath of fear. I saw angels wrapping their enormous wings around each child and adult lovingly and led them Home to our Highest Hope – Emmanuel.

I kept thinking about the song, “O Come Emmanuel” and really looked at the words. I have goose bumps all over as I read each line thinking of Newtown, Connecticut and of everyone affected by senseless evil violence.

Please… take a moment and look at these words with me:

O come, O come, Emmanuel
And ransom captive Israel (everyone affected by senseless violence)
That mourns (the spouse, parent, child, family, friend) in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel. (Newtown, Connecticut)

O come, Thou Rod of Jesse, free
Thine own from Satan’s tyranny (everyone affected by senseless violence)
From depths of Hell Thy people save
And give them victory o’er the grave (to lead them Home)
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel. (Newtown, Connecticut)
O come, Thou Day-Spring, come and cheer (Angels wrapping their wings lovingly)
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death’s dark shadows put to flight.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel. (Newtown, Connecticut)

O come, Thou Key of David, come,
And open wide our heavenly home;
Make safe the way that leads on high, (Angels bringing them Home)
And close the path to misery.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel. (Newtown, Connecticut)

I believe Emmanuel came that morning and all the other moments before such evil attacked. My heart goes out to everyone as we, “out of heartfelt sorrow, pray, stretching out [our] hands, [and] hear from Heaven where [our] Home is. Forgive.” And that we “do not let evil defeat [us], but conquer evil with goodness.”
~2nd Chronicles 6:29-30
~Romans 12: 21

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